June 10, 2009

Scream to the South Wind

The seven seas roared upon me;
The seven lands shook abruptly;
The silver clouds flooded my heart,
Wondering why are we apart.
The seven kings banished me out;
The seven roads headed me south;
The bright North Star is not in sight,
In tears I tuck to sleep tonight.
The seven towns threatened my life;
The seven knights fought me a-knife;
My blood was spilled, and I was caged,
My love, I’ll die at sunset’s stage.
The seven hours passed, the sun is red.
The guns are coming; my life’s a thread.
The seven shots banged, my soul was pinned.
Three words I scream to the south wind.
Scream to the South Wind is a story of a medieval man finding her lost love. He went far and wide and even encountered danger on different kingdoms. Alone, he was helpless against the danger, and was imprisoned for trespassing on their territory. His journey ended up in death, without even seeing his lady. His last three words are, of course, I LOVE YOU. enjoy.

June 6, 2009

We Need Music to Survive

Boston – One of my parents' deepest fears, I suspect, is that society would not value me as a musician. I remember my mother's reaction when I announced my decision to study music instead of medicine: "You're wasting your SAT scores!" My parents love music, but at the time they were unclear about its value.

The confusion is understandable: We put music in the "arts and entertainment" section of the newspaper. But music often has little to do with entertainment. Quite the opposite.

The ancient Greeks had a fascinating way of articulating how music works. In their quadrivium – geometry, arithmetic, astronomy, and music – astronomy and music are two sides of the same coin. Astronomy describes relationships between observable, external, permanent objects.

Music illuminates relationships between invisible, internal, transient objects. I imagine us having internal planets, constellations of complicated thoughts and feelings. Music finds the invisible pieces inside our hearts and souls and helps describe the position of things inside us, like a telescope that looks in rather than out.

In June 1940, French composer Olivier Messiaen was captured by the Germans and sent to a prisoner-of-war camp. There, he finished a quartet for piano, cello, violin, and clarinet, and performed it, with three other imprisoned musicians, for the inmates and guards of that camp. The piece ("Quartet for the End of Time") is arguably one of the greatest successes in the history of music.

Given what we have since learned about life under Nazi occupation, why would anyone write music there? If you're just trying to stay alive, why bother with music? And yet – even from concentration camps themselves, we have surviving evidence of poetry, music, and visual art – many people made art. Why?

Art must be, somehow, essential for life. In fact, art is part of survival; art is part of the human spirit, an unquenchable expression of who we are; art is one of the ways in which we say, "I am alive, and my life has meaning."

On Sept. 11, 2001, I was a resident of Manhattan. Later that day I reached a new understanding of my art. Given the day's events, the idea of playing the piano seemed absurd, disrespectful, and pointless. Amid ambulances, firefighters, and fighter jets, I heard an inner voice ask: "Why am I here? What place has a musician in this moment?"

Then I saw how we survived. The first group activity in my neighborhood that night was singing. People sang. They sang around firehouses; they sang "We Shall Overcome," "America the Beautiful," "The Star-Spangled Banner"; they sang songs learned in elementary school, which some hadn't sung since then.

Within days, we gathered at Lincoln Center for the Brahms Requiem. Along with firefighters and fighter jets, artists were "first responders" in this disaster, too. The military secured our airspace, but musicians led the recovery. In measuring the revival of New York, the return of Broadway – another art form – was as significant a milestone as the reopening of the stock markets.

I now understand that music is not part of "arts and entertainment." It's not a luxury, something we fund from budget leftovers. Music is a basic need of human survival. Music is one of the ways we make sense of things, a way to express feelings when we have no words, a way to understand things with our hearts when we cannot grasp them with our minds. Music is the language we choose when we are speechless.

Imagine a graduation with absolutely no music – or a wedding, a presidential inauguration, or a service celebrating the life and death of a close friend – imagine these with no music whatsoever. What's missing – entertainment? Hardly.

What's missing is the capacity to meaningfully experience these events, as though eating great food without tasting it. Music functions as a container for experience – it augments capacity to grasp complex things. Without music, the events of our lives slip like water through cupped hands. Music increases our capacity to hold life experiences, to celebrate them, to survive them.

The performance I think of as my most important concert took place in a nursing home in a small Midwestern town. I was playing with a dear friend of mine, a violinist. We began with Aaron Copland's "Sonata," which was written during World War II and dedicated to a young pilot who was shot down during the war.

Midway through the piece, an elderly man seated in a wheelchair near the front of the concert hall began to weep. After we finished, we mentioned that the piece was dedicated to a downed pilot. The man became so disturbed he had to leave the auditorium, but showed up backstage afterward, tears and all, to explain himself.

He told us that during World War II, as a pilot, he was in an aerial combat situation where one of his team's planes was hit. He watched his friend bail out and his parachute open. But the Japanese planes returned and machine-gunned across the parachute chords, separating the parachute from the pilot. He then watched his friend drop away into the ocean, lost. He said he had not thought about that for years, but during that first piece of music we played, this memory returned to him so vividly that it was as though he was reliving it.

How did Copland manage to capture that picture of internal planets so clearly?

People walk into concert halls as they walk into emergency rooms, in need of healing. They may bring a broken body to a hospital, but they often bring with them to the concert a mind that is confused, a heart that is overwhelmed, a soul that is weary. Whether they go out whole again depends partly on how well musicians do their craft.

A musician is more of a paramedic than an entertainer. I'm not interested in entertaining you; I'm interested in keeping you alive. Fully alive. We're a lot like cardiac surgeons; we hold people's hearts in our hands every day. We just use different instruments.

What should we expect from young people who choose a future in music? Frankly, I expect them to save the planet.

If there is a future wave of wellness, of harmony, of peace, an end to war, mutual understanding, equality, fairness, I don't expect it to come from a government, a military force, or a corporation.

If there is a future of peace for humankind, if we are to have an understanding of how these invisible, internal things should fit together, I expect it will come from the artists, because that's what we do.

As we did in the Nazi camps and on the evening of 9/11, the artists are the ones who might be able to help us with our internal, invisible lives.

Karl Paulnack is a pianist and director of the music division at the Boston Conservatory. This essay is adapted from a welcome speech he gave to incoming freshman.

Full Credits goes to
Karl Paulnack
the Christian Science Monitor
Yahoo! News

May 14, 2009

Battle of URL Shorteners

In today’s Web-inspired lifestyle, there is nothing better than to share interesting URLs that contains videos, pictures, profiles and almost every stuff that could be found on the Net.

Sharing URLs are a part of social networking and communication. It is a way of sharing updates and news. It has grown to be a daily activity for most of the people on the Internet.

We send it thru Plurk, Friendster, Twitter and on online forums. These sites set up a character limit. For example, the comment character on Friendster is 800+, Plurk’s Plurk character limit is 100+ and Twitter’s tweet character limit is 140+. But URLs seem to grow ever more longer, and it becomes a problem for netizens to have more space to type on. For example, this URL, http://tv.yahoo.com/the-biggest-loser/show/37103/photos/1 , contains 57 characters, leaving you with only 50+ characters on Plurk and Twitter to say what you want to say.

Longer URLs are not also friendly to forum signatures, wherein some forums set up a character limit. As for FriendsterTalk, there is a 400 character limit, and having a long URL gives you short space to input more.

As demands for a shorter URL increases, new ways to shorten them comes up. Popular today is TinyURL, where a long URL of infinite characters can be shortened down to 25 characters.

TinyURL is an example of a URL redirection site, which offers shorter links that when clicked, will redirect to the original one, which is usually longer.

TinyURL is widespread, and 386 of the 1000 most popular sites has links directing to them. Made on 2002, this website has grown to serve more than 200 million URLs, and is continually growing every day. It has only been funded by donations and advertisements.

But behind the popularity, TinyURL has suffered from major issues. According to a source, “TinyURL obscures the original address, and as a result it's sometimes used to redirect to an unexpected site. Examples of this are rickrolling, redirecting to scam and affiliate websites, or shock sites; ZoneAlarm has given the warning "TinyURL may be unsafe. This website has been known to distribute spyware.” “. TinyURL is also prone to spams, for when clicking it, you do not know where you are going.

Giant websites have responded from the dangers of TinyURL. MySpace banned users from posting TinyURLs in 2006, which was followed by Yahoo! Answers the same year. Recently, Orkut and Wikipedia joined the growing lists of websites who are banning TinyURLs, and more disastrously for TinyURL, Twitter has changed its default URL shortener.

Along comes the biggest contender of TinyURL, bit.ly. Though only started not more than a year ago, bit.ly has grown to be one of the most popular URL shortening websites in the world. It’s traffic rankings is 957, more than a 9,000 place jump from its position just three months ago.

Bit.ly is viewed as a revolutionary URL shortening site. In fact, the one replaced TinyURL as the default URL shortener of Twitter is bit.ly.

Bit.ly has many advantages against his rival TinyURL. First, its shortened URL is at maximum, 20 characters long only, adding five more characters to all your words compared to TinyURL’s 25.

You can also make an account on bit.ly, and on that way, all the URLs that you have shortened will be remembered. So, you do not have to copy that URL again and reproduce another shortened link for it.

All bit.ly URLs that you made with your account are unique, meaning, even though other users have shortened the same URL, you’ll get a different URL from his. You are the only one who has that exact URL.

Bit.ly’s another edge is that information is gathered from that link. You can see how many have clicked it, the number of referrals and the location data for bit.ly URL. And since it is the default URL shortener of Twitter, you can also see from their page whether that link has been a subject of a conversation or not.

As of now, TinyURL is still ahead of bit.ly in the web traffic rankings, with TinyURL at 383, and bit.ly at 957.


Bit.ly is fast approaching TinyURL in traffic rankings. Bit.ly, also, has not unleashed its weapon, the search engine results. Search engines hit TinyURL more often, for it is the most popular to date. After bit.ly begins to gain ground on Twitter and is spread on the Web, bit.ly will also increase its search engine popularity, bringing its rank further up.

“It is still way to early to call a winner here, but the next six months will be an interesting time as these URL shorteners reinvent what it means to be an URL shortener, fight over market share, and come up with business models that allow them to sustain their business for the long haul.” Geoffrey Mack, a web analysts say.

May 10, 2009

Scream at the Summit

As I knock on the other section’s room, I see some eyes that are amazed to see me and some that are degrading me. One asked me, “wow, ang galing mo siguro, sisiw lang sa’yo ang school no?”

Many students perceive the cream of the crop as a boastful bunch of students with higher-than-normal connection with the teachers. They see us as plastics, who always tries to smile in front of the teachers even though we are not happy with them, for the sake of high grades. They see us as fools, for being an all-out servant to their teachers. They see us as pitiful people, for they think we are dedicating our supposedly enjoyable high school lives into books and lectures. They see us as lie-low persons, that we don’t have time for lecture.

I encountered one male student who asked me, “Siguro, pag-uwi mo sa bahay puro ka libro no?”

Here’s the summary. Life as an honor student is a hell hidden in heaven!

School is a battlefield for us, and our weapons are our minds. We are fighting an endless battle of numbers, for victors are decided by it. The numbers you get serves as additional weapons for the war, for the more your weapons are, the higher your chances of being the conquistador.

We need to review for quizzes, perfect our exams, spend hundreds for projects and do anything to have this weapons of numbers. If all it takes is being grade-conscious, then do it! You may have to ruin relationships in the course of getting to the top, but it is a necessary process of bringing yourself there.

Fail one subject, and oh my, it is the end of your game. You don’t have lives here, like video games has. We only have one life – one shot of becoming the top.

It is a popularity war! If you are at the top, you are popular. Everyone knows you, for you represent your year level when it comes to excellence. You can also get to join activities. You get to be an emcee, seen by all high school students listening to you. You get to compete in other schools, and be called in front during the flag ceremony for some recognition. You get to participate in contests, and when you win, you will be awarded in front of everyone. If you don’t have the looks, then honors will certainly bring you that “cool” factor and great popularity.

Getting popular has its down sides. As a prominent figure, you have to act well, for everyone’s eyes know you. You also have many critics, many who say words of humiliation or insecurity. And since everyone knows you, everyone feels close to you, you get to chat to people you are not comfortable with, and who don’t know who you are, which makes you prone to anger easily.

As someone popular on the campus, I see many who ridicule me, feeling that they are cool enough to talk with what they see as “cool”. They want to surpass the unsurpassable, and degrade the undegradable. I don’t like to socialize with people that don’t share the same interests with me, making me feel awkward every time I step in into someone’s rooms.

Great expectations. That is another problem of an honor student. Your parents expect you to continue your high grades. they expect rising marks, and not numbers in landslides. Since you managed to get to the top before, they expect you to be on the top again. Sometimes, I feel like I regret being the Top 1. I could have just fail their expectations earlier when I was young so that today, I can live my life freely.

Your friends expect it too. After recognition, I received five comments on Friendster saying this, “valedictorian next year!” Then. what if you don’t make it next year? Everyone will be disappointed. Your friends will say that it is OK, though in reality it is not.

My relatives expect a lot from me, for my mother is a boastful parrot who chatted my whole academic achievements to everyone in our clan. I have never been a second placer in Academics, and if I became a second placer, it will be total shame for me. They are expecting that I’ll walk a straight path on the top of the graphs, and that there is no climbing down the stairs.

Of course, as someone with a free mind, I think of happy thoughts outside the confines of being an honor student. Sometimes, I regret the decision of being an honor student. I wish I hadn’t started out school as a bright student, so that I don’t feel all these stresses.

There is this feeling that I blame myself on why I grew up like this, so studious. If I messed up kindergarten, then I won’t be pressured to continue what I have started, for once you built greatness, along comes greater expectations.

I feel like I abuse myself too much. Due to studies, I feel like I do not have time for myself. I frequently burn the midnight oil in the name of projects for the sake of holding my position. I review exams that I do not like, and I memorize terms out of my will. I need to do sacrifices, which are not necessary if you don’t vie for the top spot. I feel forced to do all of this. I had to. I have to fill up their expectations.

If I was not an honor student, what could life be like with me? Life would be way happier, but I’m not sure if it will be better. There will be fewer restrictions in my part, and I hold my life’s clock then! I have all the time in the world; I have the freedom to do anything, with nothing to worry about in life.

But here I am, full of worries on my unstable grades, and full of nervousness every time our teacher is going to announce the rankings.

Like a mountain climber, I have reached the summit. But deep inside, I want to do something else. But since I started out mountain climbing, and become great on it., I have to conquer all the peaks in the world. And every time I reach the summit, I scream, “WHY?”

May 7, 2009

Mute-folded (poem)

Sometimes, we can’t take to keep our silence. We want to speak, but there is great danger in speaking. Silence is safety, but speech gives us the relief. This poem is a written scream, amidst a world where stillness is a necessity.

Mute-folded is actually a word I coined from the word blind-folded, which I define as a case of being unable to speak because something is preventing it to. :) hope you appreciate my humble work of art. Haha :lol:

Mute-folded

This culture is a veil
That keeps my mouth covered
And where speech once prevailed
All tongues are now severed
I, who had my vocals,
Can’t speak of what is right
Never was I enthralled
For freedom sleeps at night.

A warrior in a barque
Against a mighty ship
Fighting the great white shark,
A goldfish in the deep
A cretin to debate
An educated man
Tragedy is their fate
May life swiftly be done

I am born with my tongue
To say things and make noise
To scream “yipee’s” and “bang’s”
To talk things of my choice
But when a gunshot fires
Why should I be silent?
Just let my words expire
And hide in teguments?

When I speak for my own
I risk great ridicule
Everything, I’ll disown
For that’s against the rule
When these rules are not right
When these things suppress you
Who will be there to fight,
To make things good and true?

Yes, I am very scared
To scream out my own heart
For If this thoughts to share
My life will soon depart
A bullet in my chest
An arrow in my head
Suffer the bloodiest
Or keep silent instead

Speak those great words, oh speak!
For someone is listening
Speak! Don’t say you’re weak!
It’s your right of speaking!
Lugubrious, indeed!
Inequality’s here.
Speak and no one will heed
Except for guns and spears!

My two eyes are not blind
But a part of me’s dead
My tongue just can’t speak
And I am mute-folded
The cloth is my weakness
The knot is the people
My fear gives it tightness
And pure silence to all.